oh...

jackson and i celebrated our 8th wedding anniversary last week...
nothing elaborate...just our annual trip to La Comedia dinner theater for some yummy food and a fantastic show ~ Miracle on 34th Street...
let me tell you that Santa was amazing...he had me believing!

luv zin ya!

refocus...

trying to direct my thoughts to other things...

this is how creative my 6 year-old can be when left to her own devices...{and when she's not ignoring me or tormenting her sister}:

yes...that's a quilt and a belt...
project runway...here she comes!


this is a luminary walk we took about 2 weeks ago with my mom-in-law and brother-in-law...
it was so pretty with the huge snowflakes and frozen waterfall...{nevermind that i had no hat and had to wear jackson's work hood which made me look like a ninja}:

and while we were there, the girls got to visit with santa...

and jackson took the girls to the park a few days ago...

i need...

to stop and take a breath...

i'm overwhelmed, exhausted, fed-up, and on the verge of a break down.
it's just too much...everything is too much.

i have too much to do and not enough time to do it.
i have a job that i'm not sure i can keep doing.
i have a daughter who i am hoping and praying will grow out of her defiant behavior...and she's only 6!
i have fears that i can't really voice to anyone because i don't know how to put them in words.
i have a husband i am trying not to drive away.
i am tired of having the same arguments.
i am constantly...and i mean 24-7...in pain.

i am ready to throw in the towel.


i wish with all my heart that i could focus on everything that is good right now...this time of year, this season.

but i just can't.

{f.y.i....just putting that in words helps some. i just need some time...}

hi brat!

better late than never...

this is my stunning sister, sarah {a.k.a. "brat"},
and my girlies at thanksgiving:

our christmas card...

another one of jaden's fantastic illustrations...

{when you get yours in the mail, just pretend you haven't seen this post}
heehee...

new goodies...

in my etsy shop...