step back in time for a moment...

pretend that it is august 31st...

jaden's 1st day of school

she was totally excited...
i was a total wreck!

got her dressed...
got the backpack ready...
pinned on her i.d. tag...
took some pics...





drove her to school...
walked in the building...
and made it back out WITHOUT CRYING!

got in the car...
ashlyn said, "where's j.j.?"

...and that was the end of me


got home, got settled, finally stopped crying...
sat with jackson and ashlyn waiting for the bus...
and almost missed this shot of jaden's 1st busride home

woke up to this

on the bathroom mirror...



...jackson's working hard to get me out of my funk

i'm totally...

in a funk...

my depression seems to be back with a vengance

nothing seems to be going right lately...
{ever have the feeling that, at least for the moment, you're not in the right life? like, is this really what i'm supposed to be doing??)

stuff on the homefront is rather rough right now...money sucks!

my job? not fabulous...not really horrible...somewhere in between




oh, and the family?...
well, jaden got mad last night because i told her to go back and brush her teeth again (i could still tell what she had for dinner...YUCK!)

she said, "YOU'RE MEAN!"

and,

without hesitation,

i said,



"I KNOW!"

you know you've had a long day...

when you pull up to a 4-way stop with a flashing red light...

(one that you drive through twice a day)


and you are so tired/exhausted/mentally wiped-out...




that you sit there waiting for the light to turn green

i've been tagged...

thanks a lot, michelle! lol!

apparently, i am supposed to write 6 interesting things about myself...
here goes...

i am:
1. a true crafter at heart...everything from scrappin (YAY!) to sculpting santas and faeries
2. TOTALLY addicted to reality tv! (i'm having withdrawl from project runway)
3. always unsure of myself...(even though i try to portray myself as confident, funny, yadda, yadda, yadda)
4. in love with kid/disney movies...my absolute fave is Wizard of Oz
5. sneaky...i wait until jaden goes to bed to play with her littlest pet shop toys (mwaahahahaha!)
6. still in love with my hubby after nearly 13 years!


i'll have to think about who i'll be tagging next...you better watch out! (wink, wink)

where were you...

when the world stopped turning?

do you remember that song?
you know...the one that talks about September 11th...
the one that says "were you teaching a class full of innocent children...?"

it gets me every time.

because i was a teaching a class full of innocent children...
because i found out the day before 9/11 that i was pregnant with jaden...
because what they did to us, what they took from us that day can NEVER be forgotten..

it breaks my heart that i can't discuss it in my classroom (the students are too young)...
...that i can't talk to my daughter about it (so that she'll really understands it) until she's older...
...that it really happened, and i watched the whole thing with my own eyes


i will never forget

slacker!

yup...
that's me!

i've been half busy, half lazy...but i know i need to update this!

it's been hard for me to stop my life in order to memorialize my life...

anyway, lots to tell you & more posts to come...
i promise!

...i think...